Rainbow meditation

I had a difficult week and my school work suffered for it. I find it hard to rate myself accurately because I feel like a RTA bus ran over me! I struggle to concentrate. My ratings are probably going to be lower than they actually are. My physical well being is around a 6 because I do not sleep long enough in order to complete my responsibilities. I find I either nod off at my key board or look at it with a blank stare because I cannot remember what I wanted to type next! Obtaining at least 7 hours of restful sleep and continuing to walk my dog Eli every day is my goal for this week.

My spiritual well being is around an 8. I have trouble remembering to pray and send out positive energy into the world because my psychological well being has slipped this week. I find negative thoughts, sadness, and anxiety sneaking into my daily experience. My boyfriend is having a terrible time with the death of his mother and his family being malevolent and malicious about settling her estate. I feel depressed for him! My psychological well-being has slipped to about 5. I have four goals in mind for this week. I will find little spaces to read affirmations. I will pray for positive energy from God and all my wise angels every time I feel unsettled or anxious. I will try to move through my day with skillful actions instead of reactions based on stress and anxiety. I will count on my boyfriend to have the inner wisdom to resolve his feelings and conflicts with his family.


The first time I tried this exercise I began to cry and had to stop. There was so much emotional and physical pain that day it was as if a darkness covered my vision of the colors except for the ruby red that grounded me. I knew I was overwhelmed so I decided to go outside into the sunshine and allow the experience of nature to soothe me on all levels.



The second time I did this exercise, I focused on filling my mind with each color. I associate the red in the rainbow with rubies which come from the ground. The day lilies in my yard are the vibrant orange. I drew color studies of the day lilies in pastel several times over the years. Yellow is one of my favorite colors and it was easy to see late day sunlight and lemons.



For the green I associate clover and grasses, although I also see real emerald stones. Aquamarine is my birth stone so I see the depth of color in the earrings I never take off. I see the water in the Bahamas where I once took a vacation to sit on the beach every day. For indigo I envision the color of my boyfriends eyes when he smiles and comfortable blue jeans. My use of purple and violet in drawing gave me a vision of purple petunias and their comforting smell. The white light of the moon bathed, surrounded and comforted me in a warm, safe way.



During this rainbow experience I persisted with each stage... My dogs barked. Cats asked for attention. I noticed body fatigue and lack of enough quality sleep as well as every ache in my muscles and joints from my feet to my neck because the day before had been difficult and demanding in terms of mind-body-spirit. Speaking the suggestion/affirmation with each body area helped me to integrate my functioning as I opened my eyes. The remembrance of each area and its importance in my life restored my optimism. I feel the certainty that, no matter what goes on with others around me, I am going to be healthy and whole.